Last night, a friend asked me why I love horseback
riding so much. I told him that
when I’m on a horse everything else melts away. There is a partnership that is forged, bonded and welded in
a way that can’t be recreated anywhere else. Together, you and the horse are bridging two completely
different worlds, and learning to understand and communicate with each other in
order to accomplish something. It
synergetic to be a part of something so miraculous as communicating with a
being other than your own kind, witnessing the intelligence they have and
being united, her legs walking as yours.
There’s also much to learn when observing a broken in horse. In responding to the rider’s gentle
nudgings and promptings, the horse is demonstrating total trust and
respect. They are surrendering
control and power when they don’t have to.
I spend a lot of time with animals, especially dogs and
horses. It is my job and
pastime and I love it. This week
was no exception. Between house
sitting, dog walking, kitty checking, horseback riding, and juggling my
sister’s dog and my own kitty, I’d say animals were my best friend this week
(with the exception of my actual best friend who helped with the juggling act). I concluded my busy week with hiking up
to my childhood stomping grounds, Deathsmith Canyon, with Jax this afternoon.
We explored new trails hidden behind overgrown Aspens and Cottonwoods. As we made our way through a pathway
that had secretly been hiding here my entire childhood and adolescent life, I
began to ponder upon the beauty in hiking to new places. The aromas are unlike any you’ve experienced
before, your step is slightly more attentive as your foot learns the depths of
the new earth beneath it, and the scenery is unlike any other landscape you
have ever seen or will ever see again.
It is a process of discovery and exploration that also expands your mind
to new places. Jax was loving it
too, bounding ahead and periodically looking over his shoulder to make sure I
was behind him, or lying down directly in the streambed that occasionally
meandered through our path. Having
spent so much time with creatures of the furry kind this week, and hiking this
trail with little Jax, my expanding mind was filled with a love for all living
things. I realized that, although
I don’t own any of these animals that are in my life, I consider myself their
temporary guardian and mother. They
are vulnerable and innocent. They
are pure and nonjudgmental. What
you see is exactly what you get.
They have mastered the skill of being totally present in the moment
they’ve been given. In this vein
of thought, I started to ponder where this affinity for animals all began.
I consider myself a biophiliac, craving the closeness of
nature, and since animals are organically part of the earth it makes sense that
I would be drawn to them. But I
think the answer to this question runs deeper. Let me rewind to my childhood and get philosophical for a
minute. I have always been a
defender of the quiet, vulnerable kind – be it people or animals. I remember a situation with a childhood
friend who was extremely shy. We
were in a church play together. While we
were choosing parts, everyone started to speak up on what part they thought my
friend should have; because she was quiet, they must have assumed she had no
opinion of her own and didn’t ask her.
I piped in and said with a childlike force, “Why don’t we ask her which
part she wants!” I’ve found myself
in many situations similar to this throughout my life. I don’t know where this type of
assertion comes from considering I was extremely shy myself. I speculate it’s for that very reason
that I have evolved into a defender. I was shy because at a young age I felt acutely aware of
other humans and the energy they were emitting. I realized their powerful skill for judgment, which if used recklessly
(in my little, child world) was the most powerful weapon in destroying ones
soul if you let it. This was all
so different than animals, who lack that type of judgment and expectation. They were safe and always accepting of
a self-conscious little girl. Plus,
they had vulnerability and defenselessness that drew me to them as their
defender and lover. And now, all
these years later, animals have continued to find their way into my life, but now
I get to give back for all they gave and taught me as a child. I get to be their defender, their
guardian, and stand-in mother. <3
